I haven't had sleep paralysis in months. And I just realized it a few weeks ago. I don't exactly miss it. But I miss the feeling of triumph every time I come out of it without having to stress through the process. Almost like I've mastered waking up from it -- like I've finally learned how to have a grasp of things while it happens, take it by the neck and put it back to its place. It's something I'm proud of but I don't talk about because it's strange.
And then I had it this morning after all these months! Did my recent thoughts on it cause it to happen??? It happened this morning during my usual window of extra sleep after my husband leaves for work and before I rise to get ready for mine. In my dream, there was a ruffling of sheets and a little shaking on the bed next to me. My eyes were closed but it felt like it was my husband stirring. IT FELT SO REAL. LIKE I COULD ALMOST FEEL THE MOVEMENT AND HEAR THE SOUNDS. Then I couldn't move. I guess was tiptoeing between conscious and unconscious. I was almost 100% sure (in my sleep and while I couldn't move) that it wasn't my husband causing it and I knew in my sleep that I was having sleep paralysis -- and this launched me into employing the techniques I've learned through time. I tried to relax instead of panic, waited, and moved my left hand. I was successful, and my right hand followed. And then I was awake. It's like night and day difference, which happened in split second. Almost like sleep had a door and I suddenly got out of it. It felt that way.
Looking back, it must have been some heavy freight trains going by in my area in the morning --they tend to cause our house to vibrate sometimes. Maybe that physical event intersected with my sleeping subconscious and created the dream explaining the physical event of movement by route memory of the senses.
In a paranormal/parasychological perspective, maybe a spirit visited me? But I'm not scared. I know in my heart that I am strong enough not to let them pierce through the walls of my own spirit. Too bad!!! Hehehe. God always protects me. I always trust my soul to him and rest in his bosom while I sleep. That's why I don't fear these things... It's a gift!
But I'm inclined to believe it is the train that might have caused it. And I'm just happy to be sort of "awake" in my sleep. It's a skill!
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I have volumes of Dream Diaries since High School. And with complete units of graduate studies in Developmental Psychology, I became even more interested. Knowing one's dreams is a stepping stone to unlocking the subconscious, especially if you cross-validate it with current events in your life, your feelings, the happenings around you. I believe more in the psychological side than the paranormal (interpreting the signs and symbols), but these two work well together. I don't want to discredit the universal dream symbols (nor the paranormal because it can happen too), but I highly believe that each person's dream is relative, and highly personal in meaning. It depends on what is going on in your life, inside and out. Suffice it to say, I'm Freudian and Jungian. but most of the time, I'm just me. These are my dreams and how I get to know myself deeper, for the world to witness, in my own terms.
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DREAMS...
"Dreams are the touchstones of our character."
-Henry David Thoreau-
Dreams are more real than reality itself, they're closer to the self.
-Gao Xingjian
Dreaming permits each and every one of us to be quietly and safely insane every night of the week.
-William Dement
Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens.
-Carl Jung
Yet it is in our idleness, in our dreams, that the submerged truth sometimes comes to the top.
-Virginia Woolfe
Judge of your natural character by what you do in your dreams.
-Ralph Waldo Emerson
I think we dream so we don't have to be apart so long. If we're in each others dreams, we can be together all the time.
-Hobbes (of Calvin and Hobbes)
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.
-Edgar Allan Poe
A dream is a wish your heart makes.
-Walt Disney, Sleeping Beauty
Listen to the colour of your dreams.
-THE BEATLES
-Henry David Thoreau-
Dreams are more real than reality itself, they're closer to the self.
-Gao Xingjian
Dreaming permits each and every one of us to be quietly and safely insane every night of the week.
-William Dement
Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens.
-Carl Jung
Yet it is in our idleness, in our dreams, that the submerged truth sometimes comes to the top.
-Virginia Woolfe
Judge of your natural character by what you do in your dreams.
-Ralph Waldo Emerson
I think we dream so we don't have to be apart so long. If we're in each others dreams, we can be together all the time.
-Hobbes (of Calvin and Hobbes)
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.
-Edgar Allan Poe
A dream is a wish your heart makes.
-Walt Disney, Sleeping Beauty
Listen to the colour of your dreams.
-THE BEATLES
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For the past few years I have had contact with invisible beings and out of body experiences; all in bed. I've also had many experiences with lucid dreaming. I don’t know why it happens -- it just happens. A typical occurrence is me waking up, completely paralyzed (yet fully conscious), able to feel and hear things happening in the room. I believe the first time I actually encountered a being was my third semester in college when I was lying on my belly in my room with all of the lights on, taking a nap. No one else was in the room, and I woke up paralyzed, unable to move. I heard (what sounded like) many whispers, all in different (possibly the same, but definitely foreign) languages. I could not make out exactly what any of the whispers were, but I did get this: “veng-eance” with a long draw on the “g.” It was a sad and moppy tone, but I heard it clearly, in my right ear specifically … In other attacks I’ve heard angry voices yelling at me and ending with “you’re going to burn in hell.”
ReplyDeleteAnyway I started a forum for people who have similar experiences: http://www.sleep-paralysis-forum.com/index.php
Come check it out sometime.